Practicing loving kindness begins by learning to love your self first, however; at times it is hard to do if you don't feel complete.
I imagined my youngest son in particular when asked to picture someone I loved. He is temporarily staying with my ex-husband while he finishes school. The sense of spaciousness comment made me feel empty without my son in the house so the track made me feel lonely and uptight instead of relaxed. With all these thoughts running in my mind, my concentration is just next to none. My emotions got the better of me. I love all my children dearly and at the moment, our home is not complete.
I hear you! I have found it hard to slow down and put aside such distracting thoughts. I have a similar situation, my husband and I have been raising his two older boys alone for 8 years and 2 years ago their mom decided she wanted back in their life. Through a very messy process and our inability to fit 6 people in our tiny house(My husband and I, his two boys, and two young children we have together) they now live almost full time with their mother. We have gone to having them full time to sometimes on the weekends. It is nothing compared to what you're experiencing I'm sure, but stick in there, things will improve. I will include you in my thoughts.
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